March 06, 2018
元気じゃない！
Posted at 9:05 AM
私は元気じゃない。今日、たくさん友だちとNew Jersey に行きます。でも、父はこわいです。父はべつにはなしません。
Today I'm not feeling good. Today, I'm going to New Jersey with many friends. But, my father is scary. My father had nothing much to say.
And sometimes I wish we could communicate but I've long been conditioned to not speak up, to not do anything that may cause conflict. I didn't want to create ripples in this calm pond to avoid anxiety, to avoid lingering feelings of guilt or fear of what may happen if I do something. And that's probably why I feel like I would not be able to live my life the way I want, because I'm always so afraid of feeling uncomfortable. Isn't that just not a good way to live life? I surely think not. I'm pretty unhappy, pretty anxious, pretty afraid to return home after I leave. It's out of my bounds, I've never done this before. But if not now, when? I just turned 20. I'm still young. I can enjoy life and make good memories on my own terms as long as they're reasonable right? I think this is reasonable. I'm only consoling myself because my heart is racing and I feel like I might throw up. Wow, talk about feeling nervous before a trip. But it's not out of excitement. I might fall apart.
Labels: Break, Life, Memories
July 29, 2015
Summer Break Pt. 3
Posted at 7:34 AM
I really haven't done anything productive in the past week or two and it's getting on my nerves. I need to get myself back on my own game. All I've been doing daily is go on youtube, be on my phone, etc. But I don't think writing counts as work since I'm doing it leisurely.
Anyhow, despite my laziness, I've become obsessed with Clash of Clans. My updates are going along fine. I need to upgrade my Town Hall so I can buy more resources and defenses and build more walls. I need to upgrade my gold and elixir storage as well because I'll be needing that moneyyyyy~
Almost level 32. I started building my Wizard Tower today. It takes 12 flipping hours.. But I think it's a pretty good defense since I have to destroy that first when raiding villages or else I lose more soldiers. I can't wait until my Archer is done with its upgrade. Don't really care to upgrade my goblin but why not I guess…
My clan, The One, lost its recent clan war against My University. :(Labels: Break, COC, Summer
July 09, 2015
Summer Break Pt. 2
Posted at 2:58 PM
Summer so far is … dull. Been home doing my summer assignments, a book for English Lit. and another book for US Gov. I'm making progress in both. But I'm pretty much stuck at home.
By the way, started playing Clash of Clans… when did I start?
Sometime around the start of Summer Break.
Anyway, here's my progress after about 2 weeks.
I'm level 18, acquired 644 trophies from village invasions, and I had to keep reorganizing my walls and resources around my land. I didn't join a clan yet because I need to be accepted into a really good and dedicated one. But I'm not sure if I'll be the most dedicated player. I'm on this freaking app almost everyday, always reopening to check up on how far my upgrades have gone. Anyhow, need to start saving Gold and Elixer.
The point of uploading the pic above is so I can look back at how much of a noob I was...
For those who don't play, this is how a really advanced village or w.e they're called should look like. Too bad it takes a lot of time to upgrade everything, down to the fucking walls that you surround your resources and buildings and storage and mines with. Ughhh… this is the 2nd highest from my Friends list on FB. His name is Richard Z. whom I never really talked to. But anyhow, I want mine to look like this in half a year. :D Also, I'd like to experience a Clan War. That would be awesome.
Labels: Break, COC, Gaming, Summer
June 30, 2015
summer break pt. 1
Posted at 9:21 AM
Amazing pics of Oreo. Her spots are similar to those of the kitten from a year or two ago. She was probably living around the corner when she was given away. The fact that she came back to our back gate though. :)
Pic on: 5/17/15 9:19PM
Another pic of my love on 6/15/15 at 4:25PM :P
June 22 at the Pennslanding skating rink for a reunion with Emily :)
Other attendants were : Alice, Jenny, Ada, Queenie, Victoria, Andy, Ken, Auen, Andrew, Victoria's bf (Zach), and Meeeeeeeee!
A kitten from yesterday that I took a pic of at 6:39AM. Reminds me of Alfie kind of… idk.
Labels: Break, Summer
April 12, 2015
last day of spring break 2015
Posted at 5:18 PM
Went out with Ms. Alice today (: We went shopping, ate at chipotle, walked around and took pics and were on snap chat, went to get bubble tea in CT. heeheheheheh :)
she on my phone
and yeah, I got a new phone yesterday (galaxy s6)
but yeah, look at her thinking she cute lol
omg
we look fab and we know it
i also made an instagram yesterday (:
My favorite pic of us that i might cry <3
Labels: Alice, Break, Life, Memories, Outing
April 09, 2015
center city
Posted at 6:26 PM
Went out with Richard today but before he came I was somewhere near LovePark and decided to take pictures.
We went to Chili's where I had the first of many kisses in my life. The kiss I had when I was 6 doesn't really count. I'm no longer a kissing virgin! /.\
I can't wait to get a better phone ><
Cloudy weather today.
Labels: Break, Discovery o u o, Life, Memories, Outing
April 08, 2015
extra stuff
Posted at 7:56 AM
Internally cringing from skimming over blog posts about my previous relationship *gagging reflex*.
I'm currently on Spring Break and I left all my books out again when I cleaned up days before… so much for "Spring Cleaning".
Recently finished the anime Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, which I missed so much. I was satisfied with how it ended and it was just amazing overall. I'm still having mixed feelings as to whether or not FMA should be #1 or Steins;gate…
I'm getting a new phone soon. I went to BoostMobile days ago to get a Samsung GalaXy s5 but it was sold out *waiting..waiting…*
Too late for another Resolution but given the past 3 months since the new year began, I need to write another list of things to keep in mind for the rest of the year:
#1 : Stop being such a downer.
#2 : Stop procrastinating.
#3 : Prioritize better.
#4: Communication with family and friends.
#5: Don't over think.
#6. Yeah, maybe I'll add more later.
Anyhow, what does the rest of my Spring Break look like (meaning what am I going to do that doesn't involve staying inside of the house):
Tomorrow/ Thursday: Going out with the baka.
Friday: Slam Poetry at Freedom Theatre from 4:30 - 6:30 PM [afternoon]
Saturday: Waking up early in the Morning for the Run
Then there will be Sunday and back to school the following day, which is what I'm looking forward to in all honesty.
Labels: Anime, Break, Event, Life, Memories, Note-To-Self, Other, Planning, Resolution
January 05, 2015
Morning
Posted at 9:22 AM
Break is over! D:
I'm at work now but this morning I got to see the faces that I've missed so much over break and can't wait to spend another year with them. :)))
Afternote: Getting my life together is a priority. But when is my life EVER together. Reflection on last year is a pain in the butt. And I want to type out things I've done wrong that I will not ever do again (or avoid as cautiously as possible).
1. Prioritize your relationships. Seriously, I've dealt with this last year and I'm kind of wondering whether my mind is in the right place. Please don't neglect the people who are around you and care about you for someone you feel is more important or feel like you need more than life. Biggest mistake ever. I live for myself and I decide who I'll invest time in.
2. Cut the bullshit and stop being scared. Won't follow through 100% because my guts are as minuscule as a grain of sand. Working on it~! Fear is one of the driving forces that keeps me from doing what I want to do and NEED to do.
3. Be more outspoken. Not in a way where I'm always out there but I need to stop playing the doormat that people can just walk all over.
Prioritized relationships as I've noticed are rather few. I'm comparing the people who were with me from birth until now, from elementary school until now, and from the beginning of high school until now. Those time spans and the people who I've walked through those years with are people who I truly need to care about because they've been with me on the long run.
Since Birth: Family members, duh.
Since Elementary: Alice, Jenny, Ada, Emily, others I associate with on a routined basis.
Since High School Started: Jose, Kris, Richard, Esthela, Lizbeth (more to name but these 5 pop up in my head).
I'll end this post on a positive note.
Positive note.
lol.Labels: Break, School
December 25, 2014
merry christmas
Posted at 6:35 PM
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Labels: Break, Christmas, Holiday
December 23, 2014
deletion and completion
Posted at 9:45 AM
 Christmas Break for me has started since this past weekend (wonderful). Fourth day in and I'm going back to school on Jan. 5th. I'm tired of being bored and I'm bored of being tired. Nothing to do but read, write, do homework, read more, manga/anime… well, I'm not all that bored. It's just nothing exciting. I'm trying to create a to-do list every single day just so I have something to complete and feel satisfied with when I'm done by the end of the day. Might as well type out these plans.
Note: Random pictures are going to be added into this post (like the ones where I edited with Lana Del Rey).
Speaking of which, in the past few days she uploaded new songs on Youtube, one called "I Can Fly" and "Big Eyes". I love Big Eyes, really haunting and I love the lyrics.
>.<
Here's my plans for Christmas Break that I've laid out last week:
recording online journal entries- reading
- getting bags washed
- clean up (winter cleaning!)
- watching movies
- reading manga
- watching anime
- vocabulary record
- prepare for ACTs
- prepare for SATs
- look at colleges
- finish homework
Speaking of manga, I started reading Ookami Shoujo to Kuro Ouji yesterday. There's an anime out for it now but screw the anime , I want to read the manga first. It's okay so far; hasn't really left the greatest impression on me yet. I'm only on Chapter 8.
Speaking of which, I'm trying to read a lot of books. I tried reading this one psychology book two nights ago which was a bad idea because my brain was preparing to shut down and having statistics shoved down my throat is not the plan.
Spontaneous kitty gif I found on tumblr days ago that I thought was real cute ^.^
Sata <3 He's a complete jerk and he reminds me of Richard >_>
I agree.
Labels: Books, Break, Cat/Kitten, Christmas, Holiday, Life, Note-To-Self, Other, Planning, Procrastination, Reading, School
December 20, 2013
Thankyouthankyouthankyou
Posted at 5:38 PM
Break finally and officially starts ~
I finally have a whole week of doing whatever I want like :
Drawing
Reading
Writing... draft...I need to start on a fanfiction next year so...
Study (need to get ahead of people)
Improve my vocabulary
Eat
Watch a lot of anime
Restart some manga
More drawing
Tumblr
Tetris
Getting all my beatmaps onto osu again ;-;
Buy stuff (like books and art supplies [like the advanced one, not the cheap crayola stuff at the School supplies section)
Labels: Break, Planning
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Neuroscience Major, Psychology Minor
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