August 08, 2014
i suck so much.
Posted at 7:23 AM
Wow, I really suck with relationships don't I. And I'm not meaning the intimate, affectionate ones with your significant other. I mean like, friends and family. I am so terrible at keeping connections going at times and this is all due to the fact that I've been angry at myself for the past few days and weeks back that I haven't talked to Alice. Maybe she's changed her opinion about me and thought I left her for a guy. But I seriously didn't and I don't want it to look that way, when it clearly does. And I really miss talking to her (ew, things are getting cheesy) o-o. And I get really nervous as to how to start a conversation with her now. Also Skype is down (thank you Mac Update, you did a great job at tearing down some apps that I can't fix by redownloading). ;——; Ugh, this is terrible.I mean, even when I talked to Alice everyday, I kind of ignored everyone else that talked to me o-o
(With the exception of Emily, Jenny, Ada). Maybe it's because I'm a one man person. When I stick to someone, they're the first person I'll answer and reply to automatically.
I feel like losing Alice as a connection won't be good so omg this is getting sosososososososoos cheesy. But the thing is, I've talked to her almost everyday for the first and half year going into high school and wow…
But I need to work on it.
And to Alice (if she reads this): Biggest apologies for not having talked to you. It's like I just disappeared out of the blue. I admit that I'm an asshole and a shitty friend. >_> But yeah, I still like and want to talk to you because ksladf;sadfjslda;f;dsja for obvious reasons.
So I have to work with being able to maintain and keep a certain amount of friends in check because .. me no have a lot of friends, can't lose the small amount I have… and I don't mean just friends, I mean the close ones >_> Like Emily, Ada, Alice, and Jenny .
Maybe I'm over worrying. But still, not having talked to Alice for months is wow. wtf >_>
I hateeee cheeesyyyy writing, Imma stop omfg, I'm still ugh
