August 04, 2014
UPDATES
Posted at 9:18 AM
I miss typing on this blog. I miss dumping random thoughts and ranting about things that piss me off to no end. But I am back. I just had to get my life back together and stop being lazy.For one thing, let's say my family issues resemble a heartbeat monitor. Maybe it's the way I perceive it, but the constant sharp uptakes that this line takes strains me to no end. I even started having breathing issues and panic attacks due to constant anxiety, worry, etc. I even started getting chest pains (underarm and bewb pain too). Going to the doctor for the pain that keeps shooting into mah bewbs was just ugh (sorry, didn't think I'd like to take breasts so seriously). The night before, I just felt this terrible stabbing sensation going right through my left boob every now and then that I cried and couldn't go to sleep because it hurt so much and it was INSIDE so I don't know how to sooth it. ;-; I fell asleep eventually.
School (or bootcamp) starts on August 18th. I'm actually excited to go back because I get to see Allen everyday for a week along with other people cccc:
Speaking of which, I'm really elated and happy at the fact that I power worked through 3 books, and 3 packets for my AP summer work in two weeks. I just started them right after I left school and just stuck with it. And damn, those books were hella fat. At least I don't have to worry about them as school approaches and I'm really proud of myself because of it.
So anyway, screw family problems, I'll talk to my dad about it just to assure myself that things will be okay. None the less, I need to work on managing my stress and take deep breathes. Shit is real but I can't let it take over me and ruin my health. And I don't want to sink into that state of depression again. But even if I do, I'll talk to someone because HELL NO to psychiatrists. Expensive as hell. I don't need medication. I can do this on my own. >:c
But life is great all in all. I just hope I don't overwork myself in the near future which seems to be so.
I have been reading classics and historical fiction as well (crap, I didn't know the genre was called Historical Fiction that I loved so much) gahhh.
Yes, reading Pride and Prejudice and it was boring in the beginning and the language is ehhhh but after a while, I understood it and omfgggg o-o Never been this excited over a goddamn 1813 novel. Jane Austen, you really know how to be sassy as hell in the 19th century :OOOO
Animes:
Tokyo Ghoul (awesome *^* omggggg episode 5 was so epic, yooooo)
Glasslip (I feel the Nagi No Asukara atmosphere in this cccc: i love it so far )
Ao Haru Ride (didn't want to wait after finishing all available episodes so reading mangaaaa)
Fairy Tail (I'm slow on this one and isn't so excited because I read the manga for it last summer)
Sword Art Online II (pretty good so far. I love Sinon <3)
Mahouka w.e w.e Irregular magicians and shit (LOLOL INCEST EVERYWHERE WTH jk, it's decent so far)
