August 25, 2014
lana is my queen
Posted at 2:29 PM
This post will be highly unrelated to the title I just assigned it.Not only am I feeling hopeful and optimistic, but I'm also feeling really content with my life. Maybe it's because things are… completely fine as of now and I'm just reminiscing over the past few months of my sophomore year and just building up the paranoia over the fact that I'll be a junior and is heading into my 3rd year of high school. I'm only over a year away from finishing and that's not long given how terribly short freshmen and sophomore year combined together was. That's oddly terrifying.
What's more terrifying is that I'm capable of steering my life towards what I want and that's too much power for a puny, minuscule human being on this infinitely large and continuously growing universe. I can't seem to wrap my mind around the fact that I'm in complete control. But what I'm not terrified about is probably the flies in my room currently that I'll possibly kill because… they are annoying me. ><
Well, my week is pretty much packed with reviewing Latin and reading books and studying Mandarin until school officially starts on September 2nd… but it won't be official classes. We'll go visit our work sites once our jobs are determined and assigned on August 27th and I'm in the blue group that attends at noon.
On with amusing events and things I should be looking forward to as years go by. There's Junior prom that many people want me to go to with Allen but I'm not a party person and I'd rather party at home, in the comfort of my bed sheets, curled up with a book, drinking hot tea, falling asleep only to wake up at 4 in the morning and making breakfast for myself. The ideal party of a homebody. Or maybe even with the internet. But I do promise myself to go to Senior prom because it's around graduation so why not?
Sometime after Senior year, I think Allen will be getting his American citizenship and he has to sing the National Anthem in front of the American flag which I found really comical given the fact that he's really introverted, shy, and not someone who just gets out there and do things in front of people, on display, for judgement to be passed upon. Though I reassured him that those people will probably forget who he is and his face and they'll move on so it doesn't matter.
Last thing about Allen: I like it when he says Gokudera because he accent is so blatant and I find it really attractive. Thanks to him, I'm also obsessed with the Philippines, their culture, etc. I wonder if his accent would fade throughout time though… he came to America only 2 years ago and it still seems strong to me.
I've been writing a lot lately (in my journal), short stories, incorporating vocabulary into my list of words I should use, and whatnot.
Seems like getting into college and maintaining my grades and student profile as a high schooler has become the center of my life at the moment. I am already slowly falling into the oblivion that we'd call the quarter life crisis.
