June 02, 2014
the relationship zone
Posted at 6:18 AM
It's unbelievable at times, the values we share, how we think, our opinions. They're all aligned. We talk about so many different things and that's just amazing, how you have the same tastes and interests as me, especially in music and ideas. I just really love our openness and honesty and we've only been talking for two months. I'm flattered that I'm the first you've ever really opened yourself up to. You really are the closest person to me. I don't feel ashamed to tell you about my thoughts, things that bother me, existential crisis and anxiety and whatnot, because you sometimes have them too. And I really feel that nobody understood me when I talked about it, or they may have been weirded out, I don't know. But you really helped me broaden my perspective on such darkness and I'm not saying being in a relationship is a remedy for depression or problems. It's a support system, I don't know. It still stuns me even now, how you are literally like the exact embodiment of this "other half of me". And you know, I really want to be in a relationship for years and then get married (examples including Bubz lol) because I want a long term relationship that's just like that, you know, knowing the person for so many years and then living the rest of your life with them because they're literally going to be there by your side until the day you die. To have them be your best friend is just convenient. I'm not even saying this is wishful thinking because you even agreed with me that our relationship would last. I don't think there is another guy out there that would share the same opinions, ideas, values or think alike like me. Christ, how did we end up talking about marriage and kids (in general, not between us I mean).
Ugh, so many people are breaking up with each other near the end of my sophomore year(especially my Latin teacher lol, she dropped her guy because he wanted to get married right away and have kids and they've only been together for a year) also, there's Phearath's and Richard's relationship and ughughughughugh they are complicated as hell. And I'm in the middle of all this as I'm progressing in my own relationship. Everyone's pretty much rushing their own relationships or are being selfish to the core. Like damn. (Richard and Kelly came to a consensus to break up because he wanted to have sex and she didn't). Also, still can't tell much on Phearath and Sam since it's so messed up I can't even...
Anna inspiration *^* Sighs,
hnnnnnnnnnnng yesssss. A lot of relationships fell apart because you didn't know the other person as well or wasn't open enough to understand the other person and see if they hold the same mindset as you or they were just not honest about how they felt *coughcough* David, you done fucked up lol. I'm NOT choosing sides, just saying >_>
In the end, it's hard work. If you are with the right person and you think they're worth it, then I'm sure you'll get through w.e it is. For me, I said the same thing to Allen. If I was having issues with him, he doesn't have to ask more than 2 times to see what is wrong, I'll just SAY IT. "I'm fine" is such bullshit and beating around the bush and making them guess because you think they can read your mind is time consuming and manipulative. Like, wtfffffffffffffffffff. >< And afterwards, we'll work our way through it because I have school shit to worry about and I usually create the problems so lol, need to keep my life together *sighs*
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