June 11, 2014
summertime sadness
Posted at 9:56 PM
Another week has come and gone. It's been great in general. And by a week, I meant a week since I've last written on this blog. I've been invested with a lot of people at school and I'm grateful for all the talented, though-provoking individuals I'm surrounded by on a daily basis.Richard finally finished with The Fault in Our Stars and yes, he's borrowed my copy. I am, in fact, one of the first people to have read this book and everyone just started. The only other people I know who has read it a long time ago are Allen and Lely. :) But still, that book was indeed incredible :3
Exams are around the corner and my Sophomore year is about to end. All in all, it's been a great year and a lot of things changed as well. There have been a lot of break ups and injuries and ugh, wow. And well, one injury involving Simon where he ran into gym equipment and there was a hole in his leg. He got stitches and was fine. He came back to school the next day. It wasn't even that bad. I would have done the same to be honest.
Ms. Porter, my biology teacher, is freaking pregnant. :D She brought her son a few times and his name is Aiden. :D Oh yeah, she and Allen started this joke where both of them were cousins (both were born in the Philippines) and ahahahahhaha wow. I caught on a few months ago.
I got Allen into watching Chuunibyou because a few weeks ago, I decided to make the both of us Yuuta and Rikka. :D Also, the second season is relatable since since sine the issue we had was somewhat like that. Flipping tired right now ;-;.
I don't know about you but holding conversations with Allen are just amazing. For one thing, I can talk to him about the most deepest, thoughtful, and complex topics. We were going deep into things about time travel and conspiracies and sharing videos about things like akfldjs;fdsajf. Didn't think another person would have the same interests in such concepts and ideas. We also talked about things like death, life, reality, symbolism, the meaning of people's behavior. It's nice to hear another person's opinions and having them interested in your own.
Over the weekend, I really felt like falling apart because I knew that being open and honest meant telling him something that no one ELSE knows about… or maybe 2-3 people but it's not like I discussed it with them. It's just between me and another person and something that I am not open to admit but I told Allen that I'm going to be legit with him and all and not hide things. I felt like this will ruin the relationship we have now and that he won't accept me and rethink his decision. But he didn't. I wrote him long ass paragraphs and waited for hours and when he did answer, I was just… relieved. Really relieved. It was something I've done years ago and I've learned from it so of course. In summary of it all, what is our relationship really? How I can describe it is… He's literally the only other person on earth that knows me as much as I know myself. I've told him almost everything, my innermost thoughts, my worst fears, things I've done. In a way, maybe I shouldn't have. Maybe it was rushed. But in the times I've talked to him, he's proven to be a broad-minded, accepting, understanding person. And I'm really glad I have another person to talk to about almost everything, anything. There are people at school who has wanted to get close to me but they've never deemed worthy. And there are people who's known me for years but they don't seem the type to… I can't find the word.
I really am thankful ;-;
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