March 27, 2014
the pain and ache
Posted at 10:38 PM
Home is no longer home.I don't want to live here anymore.
My brother is really screwed up in the head and I can't stand it. I really can't. What does he expect to achieve. :' ( I can't stand it. What's wrong with him. Why does he have to be so stubborn. I don't want to live under the same roof as him anymore but I can't move anywhere and I don't want my parents to go through such a process.
All I hear and sense in this house is trembling anger afflicted by the only person who knew would do it. I really, really, really don't want to live here anymore. Why can't I grow up faster? When will my parents get him off his hand. Worst of all, I don't think they'll ever get him off their chest due to the fact that he might not even have a job. I'm so stressed and this is causing me a lot of stress. : (
The fact he doesn't care about what he does to others worry me and terrifies me. For one thing, he's stubborn to the point of doing really stupid things just to get attention or to annoy everyone. It's been 3-4 days of this and I don't think it'll end anytime soon. But not writing down what's going on will just leave a gap in my problem.
For one thing, HE'S BOUNCING A BASKETBALL around the house and worse, at the living room sometimes near our room and I just woke up to it. I WOKE UP TO IT. : ( Like, I really need sleep. This shouldn't be happening on a regular basis.
Why can't he do it outside? : Well this little piece of dog shat can't do it outside because there are people out there and he doesn't like people so the gym doesn't work out either. Also, in addition to the problem, we live in a really dangerous neighborhood.
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