intellectual feline

October 14, 2013

o u o Sophomore Year Might Be My Best Year? Posted at 3:10 PM

I don't know. Maybe it's because people pay more attention to me than usual because I came "out of my shell." For one thing, I have close friends who fight or argue about who gets to sit next to me (especially last year and it resulted in my falling out of my seat because they were pushing for that one seat RIGHT NEXT TO ME). Also, I get really aggravated when I'm stuck with the question ,"Who do you love more?" And people randomly open up their arms for hugs. Today we went to the zoo for example and I asked my guy-friend to hold my schoolbag but it wasn't a big deal and I said he can give it back to me when his back hurts (because my whole entire locker was in my bag, do not ask why) and then another one of my guy-friends offered to hold my schoolbag and I'm like Guys.... stop. Let me hold it. But thank you because I was in fact, lazy and my back was dying and we were walking around. Oh yeahhhh we saw Sam and she works at the Zoo on Mondays and I gave her a hug and yeaaaaaa. Also, Simon (the one carrying my bag) literally forced me into a really dark hallway exhibit thingy for bats and Ohmygod, this tall black guy from another class started to scare be and I was at my wits end. I think everyone knows I'm easily scared. The bus rides were so fun and I was with people I knew and gahhhhhhhh I loved today. Not to mention that two of my close friends saw that I was scheduled for a different retreat day (Saturday) and they negotiated with the administrator to get me to be with them and now I am. -___- Also, last week when I came back from my day off on Thursday due to eye problems, my friends came up to me and gave me a hug and Cheyenne flipping hugged me for God knows how long!!!!! Like, omfg lol. But yeah, they told me that some of our classmates missed me and them too because it was so boring without me talking and blahblahblah. I just feel like Sophomore year may be a lucky year as the aftermath or result of my dreading and hating all the things I've experienced last year. Especially with the family problems. Is it me or are people obsessed with me? The guys are intimidating me. People keep poking,hugging, etc. to me. ;-; Too much... But I guess it's because I'm still everyone's small asian girl and idk. I hope it doesn't sound like I'm boasting or anything. I'm just really thankful that people are occupying my time since I think too much about everything that goes on at home and in my life. So thank you minna-san and those I talk to on Skype. :3

This is me hugging someone or anyone (individually)

This is literally all of them hugging me back and I swear to God, being around people is just the best thing in the world. You need time alone but then again, you also need a balance of human companionship. (Mental stability)

Ahas, I was just reminded of everyone in my life and how they've shaped me into the person I am. Gahhh. My happy feels are coming. I feel so high. I feel like I can do anything. OMFG. Now I'm remembering the times back in 6th grade when Emily would call out my name when I enter the lunchroom and going ON MY FIRST EVER roller coaster ride with Alice and akljfdsaljfs;dafjsad;lfjsd. LOL Okay