October 28, 2013
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Posted at 6:59 PM
Okay, so in class today during English, we had to say what our greatest fear was and some people said the doll Chucky, or running upstairs after turning the lights off downstairs or heights or w.e. You can not guess what I said (or maybe you did). What I said that was my greatest fear was oblivion. Yes, oblivion. Absolute nothingness. Ceasing to exist. I fear and accept it so I can tolerate with my life more.I actually posted something like this but it sounded to depressing but whaohhhh there. If you really want to understand what I'm trying to say, watch this.
Hurhur. I absolutely agree with him and thought I was alone in this. But you know, I guess we have to roll with life because life is absolutely meaningless. In my opinion, I wonder to myself if my friends ever thought of something like this. You know when I started questioning my existence? 5th flipping grade. Actually got really sad over this and well... fell into the deep abyss again this year but I am so glad that I learned to accept it because of course, you should because it's not like the universe is going to stop just because of your small problems and fears and shit (as stated in the video).
How did I start thinking about this? Fearing of my grandmother's death because her hair was graying around when I was in 4th grade and I realized that she might not have long to live and my family doesn't like talking about death.
Oh yeah, btw. You make your own life meaningful. :) Remember that.
Here's how I want to spend the rest of my life btw----> Read a lot of books/manga, watch a lot of anime, write a lot in general, um... ummmmmm, helping other people in their own mental thoughts.
OH YEAH I WANT TO READ THE PRETTY LITTLE LIARS SERIES IT LOOKS AMAZING O U O BAHHHHAHAHHAHAHA
