intellectual feline

September 17, 2013

He just Lost it Posted at 7:32 PM

w0w just minutes after I wrote that blog, my brother came upstairs angry, got all huffy in front of my grandmother and she asked ,"What's wrong?" And he just kept looking angry and afterwards, he just... hits her and then she gets up and she was like,"Do you want to die?" and he's like,"Yeah, I want to die!" and he begins hitting her more and I'm just sitting there about to tear up until I shut off my humanity/emotions completely and just NOT TEAR UP. I had enough of crying and I just thought that if he hit her anymore, I'd pull him away or something... or i probably wouldn't have due to shock. Then my dad came upstairs and yeah... he was like,"If you want to go die, die already! Go jump!" Because my brother DOES have suicidal thoughts. And I just... ugh. I just sat there listening and skyping with Jenny and Alice to occupy me. For God's sake, my grandma says TOO much... And my grandma said that's he's gone crazy and he was like,"Yeah, I'm crazy." And he slams his head onto a glass cabinet and on the second try, it shatters. For God's sake. Right in front of me. I said nothing, did nothing. I felt like a complete twit. Why... just why... Yeah well, as my grandmother cleaned up, she said nasty things about him and ugh. My dad at least calmly mutters what to do about him and I need to tell my school counselor. I was going to read a book too!!!!!! Gah. Night ruined. Day ruined. Well, the one thing that makes me happy is thinking that everything ends. This will end too. No matter how long it takes, I'll be glad.