intellectual feline

August 15, 2013

Tear Tear The Pain Posted at 5:22 PM

My first few days back were actually uplifting and great. My friends were in class, I ate lunch with them, they included me in their conversations, etc. In fact, some people kept calling out my name and running to me and giving hugs and I was really flattered and happy. So happy. It was somewhat like an escape from my family problems at home.

One thing I really dislike was that starting yesterday, my back (upper right) started throbbing with pain and I took a shower yesterday evening with warm water and did a mini yoga session. It helped somewhat. Then today, it came back 2x's worse and it kept hurting throughout the day until I finally had to tell a teacher that I can't take classes any longer for the rest of the day because the pain was annoying and interfering with my stamina (ugh, I forgot that word) in class. I have been writing notes in my composition book of everything that went on around me every 5-10 minutes (wth). I was just in so much pain and was so....ughhh.

Please make the pain stop. Pleasseeeeee. It still hurts. Could it be that I pulled a muscle? The teacher said that it was probably because I always carry my school bag on my right shoulder. What??? I carried it like that sometimes and other times it doesn't hurt :( There was this one time not long ago when I had chest pain and there is sometimes pain (in my bewbs, idkkk) and ugh. sometimes I can't breathe and it's just UGHHGUGGHGH Irritating. I'm all angst and really nervous and scared that I could have developed a disease or something.

I have been bumping into things a lot lately too. I'm such a klutz now a days. :(

Basically my misfortune is all revolved around my health and surroundings. I think I have done something that made things worst IDK. :( Just... ugh. Will I be able to go to school tomorrow? Well, if I don't, I'll just stay home and study vocab. and ask for all missed assignments on Monday. I doubt I'll be able to withstand classes, sitting in a chair, learning about behavior and social conduct and other. I hate this. ;_;

I started writing in Vol. 12. But yeah... I didn't do much this afternoon. I just stuck in notes I tore out from my composition notebook, folded it in half, and just stuck it in there. I think I instinctively did this before hand because I knew I won't be able to write about my day (I' am typing this with excruciating pain btw). Ughhh. I have been sticking many people's name tags into my journal as well... taking up a lot of pages so I decided to tape in a extra page with copy paper... what am I saying???? OH MY GOD.

I slept at 8 or 9 last night and got a good amount of sleep, hoping it'll ease my pain. BUT NO. It had to come worst.