July 25, 2013
Today's Blog Post
Posted at 8:41 PM
Listening to Peachcock by Z-Hara as I type this blog post. I was writing a journal entry earlier and when I came back to check the time, a few minutes passed and I'm thinking ,'But I wrote so much.' This morning I was writing a butt load of Tumblr posts that I found inspiring, funny, or witty. I wrote 5 pages in like, an hour and some of the posts were long. Wait... it wasn't an hour. I started at 7 in the morning and stopped at 9 for breakfast. That's about 2 hours... well, I took a few minutes to scroll through my likes because I liked some really good posts and yeah... I chose from out of there. Then I unliked it to keep track. I had to write the urls too because I'm not into plagiarism. That's not cool. LOL. And if there was a gif I'd do >picture of...<. Ugh, it was a pain.Anyway, there are a couple highlights of today. First off, I did help my parents quite a bit. They don't get much customers so I'm basically useless. However, they still show me that they see my effort in helping them. I like that. I did some sudoku, tumbling, and reading while I'm at it. Also, a lot of cats came around. Squishy, my parents mused, had given birth and was really hungry. They left this chicken wing out and Squishy came to our house once and ate it. ALL OF IT. Even the bone. It's really amazing how I'm around to see generations of cats come and go. I always look forward to the new stray kittens even though it's a bad thing that they're strays. But my neighborhood wouldn't be complete without them. I know Squishy's mom and her friends that come around. I know cats that have died a few years ago after giving birth to a new generation of kittens that I enjoy watching them grow. It's a really good feeling. There's this black kitten that came around this morning as well and it's really cute. It's mom was a few feet away though because it was scared of us. I liked that black kitten. I'll think of a name. Midnight sounds too...common or simple. I need something sophisticated and sassy. Wait...what is sassy? LOL.
Ummm. Yeah, that's a highlight. The cats. Another highlight is that when my dad was talking to someone/customer he was laughing. I thought it's nice to see him laughing and all but wondered if he was laughing at someone else's faults which is...saddening. But a few minutes later he told me about his little joke and yeah, it was amusing. All I can think of was if my brother was down here, he'd probably tell my dad to shut up. I don't know why I would think of something like that at a time like this. I'm glad I was down here just to hear him talk to me. About anything. :') Despite the fact that my brother could have gone down here at any moment of the day... I'm glad he didn't come down at that time.
Some things that put me down about today was that my highschool sent a letter and it said that school was going to start on 8/12/13. Oh my gosh. I won't complain though because I'm worried about whether my brother is really going or not. One time, he told me he needed to go learn some things before going and I'm thinking, 'Going my ass. You're not going. You hate black people that much.' They're not bad if you get to know some of them. Like, why are you judging people when you didn't get experiences from a different handful of people? I believe no matter what race there is in the world, there will be groups of good and bad people. By good people, I mean people who have morals on how to make society strong... actually, what am I talking about. My vocabulary is low...so I can't explain well.
Another time, my brother told me why am I reading a book about what white people do. I was reading Rapture by Lauren Kate (4th book to Fallen) and I'm thinking, 'Oh my gosh. I don't like racism because it'll limit the kinds of books I read.' Like, it's probably translated in Japanese too and Japanese people read it. What the hell is wrong with him?
This morning, my brother almost tripped on something and muttered ,"Oh shit." A few months ago, something similar to that happened to me and he told me to pleeeeease stop cursing as if he was begging. Well, shit. You can curse and I can't. You must be righteous enough to know how to use curse words better than I do. Oh my god. ;( I really don't want him near my family. Oh fuck, he's my family too. This is the worst possible situation in my life.
Yesterday, my mom was meowing and talking to the cats (the way I do) teehee. Yeah. It was calming. Like, imagine...my parents weren't like this all the time because of my brother... Ugh... wait.... Oh my god. I'm writing about things that I didn't even state in my journal ;_; I feel as if I have no time for things anymore.
Another thing that brought me down was that my brother looked really somber. It must be because I haven't continued Black Butler with him in 3 days. I feel really uncomfortable watching it with him because of seeing Ciel's arrogant behavior. I don't want my brother getting any ideas about... Ugh.
Am I getting stressed over the wrong things? What's right? What's left? What is going on with me? o-o
Okay, so I'm on Puzzle 95 of my Sudoku book and yeah... terrible. I got all the numbers right thus far and 5 of them just...yeah... now I might have to change ALL the order of the numbers which pisses me off. You see, sometimes numbers like to screw with me and cockblock each other making my brain cells explode. I'm thinking about getting a Rubik's Cube but I don't want to buy it for myself.
I can tell Sudoku is keeping my brain sharp when I played Hello Kitty Carnival on my phone. My mind was sharper and I served over 45 out of 55 customers really quick. I felt proud. What I'm worried about was when I read my summer reading book... I barely paid attention. It's so dull and not my type... at the moment that is. I don't hate it though. They have really amusing sex jokes within it's pages. lol
I'm kind of pissed and scared for Alice. For one thing, my story that I told Jenny might have come true... or maybe I jinxed it. I hope she's not really kept in her cousin's basement with her imposter childhood friend. And I'm pissed that she hasn't answered my snapchats. Once she returns, I'm going to burn her ass off so she can't sit. Jk. But seriously, Alice is... omg. :( :'( Come back, I have tumblr and youtube things to show you omg. Why aren't you here?
Well, that's all. Time to go upstairs and shower.
Yeah, I have cat photos from yesterday and today but my phone is off so I can't bluetooth import and stuff so yeah... tomorrow...or maybe the next day. I don't want to write on my blog everyday. Too time consuming. :(
