July 30, 2013
My Brother AGAIN!!!!!! >:O
Posted at 9:39 PM
Okay, so I wasn't there for the beginning part since I was taking a shower. When I went downstairs, I saw a worried expression on my dad's face. And my brother looked really.... emotionless yet miserable at the door. Dad looked at me for a moment before I turned away. I was writing in my journal, playing Osu, and doing my Rubik's cube and I tuned into their conversation. It seems that my brother doesn't want to live yet he doesn't want to die. My dad told him that everything he's had was a blessing and he doesn't know why my brother would think in the way he does. You see, dad was telling him about the poor people who are happy when they get the smallest things. My brother kept saying things that might happen that will make the situation turn out bad. That's what I call PESSIMISM. Like, the freak. I mean, why do you keep thinking negatively. No wonder you don't want to live. He said he doesn't know what he wants to do when he grows up so there's no point in going to go to school anymore. I feel bad for him because later in life, he'll know that it was a bad decision that he wont' be able to undo.I guess he's lonely and .... well, he just rejects the world and everything. He only looks at the problems and not the things he already has. He's lucky to have 4 limbs, health, a home, and parents who care deeply for him. Why isn't he happy?
Hold up lil bro. First of all, you need to rethink everything you've said because the decisions you make now will impact you later in life and you may regret it big time. You think there's no future for you? You lost hope so quickly and rejected everything to early...or that's false. Why did you reject everything? Is it because it wasn't your taste? You see, the world isn't perfect which makes it even more beautiful. You might think I'm cheesy but let me tell you one thing. I was once like you. I once didn't want to live nor die either. But after giving this positive attitude and go, life doesn't seem so bad. In fact, it's amazing. We're lucky. Why don't you see it ? Because you are blinded you cynical and pessimistic little omg. -______- If you felt what I feel then you know life is amazing. No matter what ups and downs we go through, they always lead to something bigger and better. That's what I believe. You need friends too. You are always alone. You close the blinds. You hate going out. What's the big deal. I like being alone, BUT I done love being alone. It's the worst feeling in the world.... or maybe being with people who makes you feel alone is worse. I don't know. ._.
You're still my brother no matter what. I'm glad you didn't talk back to our dad. Why didn't my dad tell him about the positive attitude? Or did he and I didn't hear. Oh well... time for bed. Tired as hell. I mean, I'm tired as.... UGH.
