June 01, 2013
Peter...
Posted at 5:20 PM
Just hearing him play the guitar in the other room makes me sick.I can't believe he doesn't thank my dad properly for something like that. O_O
I use to complain but it wasn't so bad...
I remembered a few months ago when I kept huffing and shyt in the car and turning away from him as he drove. I was somewhat like my brother, but not as bad. When dad yelled at me that day, I listened even though it annoyed me slightly.
My brother is just... a mess... selfish..... my dad.... I don't know what I'd do without him.
And it's stupid to blame our parents for our lives unless they have some kind of illness on them.
If I had some kind of illness that is hard to cure, I wouldn't have kids.
My brother should be grateful that we are healthy and have straight teeth and perfectly working organs. I'm happy for my limbs as well. My dad, he's been hurt a lot. Physically too. One time, on my day back from vacation a long time ago, my dad drove with a casket around his arm. Scissors or knives penetrated through his finger.
I remember watching in fascination as he observed his finger without the bandages. It was creepy. He almost cut his whole finger off. I'm glad that it's perfect and back to the way it was. One time he fell down the basements step too. He also had a surgery for being hit on the head one time.
I think this is what my brother would say,"Well, it's his fault for not being careful."
O___o
I hate him.
My dad drives us to and from school. Most of the money he works for is for US! US! Who is my brother calling selfish? They talk about money because the whole goddamn thing is for us. What a stupid bitch. I can't deal with him.
I hope I can financially support my own family and my parents. And I hope my brother lives alone and doesn't get married. Peter with a girlfriend. That doesn't match at all. Also, we don't need more people like him in this world. However, I think his behavior is from my mom. I think she was somewhat like this when she was young but matured faster. And THANK GOD I'm like my dad. You see him in my goddamn face fking. I'm so proud to look like my dad. So when I have a son, he might look like my dad and when I'm old, it's like my dad is still here... wait... what am I saying?
UGH. Venting.
I do blame my dad for giving my brother too much freedom though. It's a little scary. My dad should be more badass than this. O_O
Anyway, I'm still planning on writing a letter for his birthday present :3
And it will involve .... all the good things about him :3 <3
